the way she turned out

she spends class times drawing circles on her page

convincing herself it’s better than nothing


she’s scared she’ll be stuck in her mind always

wishing she’d been something else


i don’t think anyone can get through

but i don’t think she wants them to

cause there’s nothing to change

she just doesn’t like the way she turned out


she wants to lock her bedroom door and exist only in that space

she won’t change clothes but she’ll try on different eyes and try to see herself from someone’s place


i don’t think anyone can get through

but i don’t think she wants them to

cause there’s nothing to change

she just doesn’t like the way she turned out


and she won’t really let anyone through

cause there really isn’t a use

there’s nothing to change

because this is just the way she turned out


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